The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

What does this mean to you?
I have no experience with heartbreak or anything of the sort. Klemey, I am sorry to hear that your heart is bruised. I'm sure it will be mended and be restored back to its original bright coloring! :)
I've yet to fall in love with a human being. I'm happy to say I've fallen in love with other things. Sometimes people can't do that or understand it.

I love seeing you both on campus too! Just think, years ago we were in high school trying to figure out life and everything in it. Now look at us. We are close to conquering the world with our dedicated minds and hopeful souls!
;)
I hope this semester is treating you ladies well. You deserve the best and brightest futures!
I may not spend as much time with you ladies as I used to, but honest to God, I think about you both every single day.
-Rai

Why Hello Hello!

I was looking through our posts and remembered how hilarious we are! Good times, good times. :)

New York was life changing for me! It's all I think about day and night. It's crazy. All I want to do is hail a taxi, take the subway, walk down a cool street. But instead I'm just going to my classes and going to work...not exactly the dream life. But I'm working on it! =D

Klemey, are you still going to school next Fall?? If you are I'm so excited! What classes are you gonna take? Are you still going to study Accounting? If you are we should take a class together! YAYYYYYYYYYYY!

But Elko sounds interesting! Take a lot of pictures for me, I'd like to see this place!

How long have you and Andrew A. been together? Where did you meet him?

I am excited that it is 2012. So far I've been looking at life a different way and I am genuinely pleased with how things are working out! I've been blogging and it sure helps when I need to look up inspirational quotes and pictures. They make me happy :)

It's on tumblr if you want to check it out! http://slynneth.tumblr.com

I try not to follow the blogs where the girls constantly complain about their lives...that used to be me and that is so 2011! ;)

I love your January goals! No texting at work=HILARIOUS.

Also I like your birthday/wedding party idea! That's cute! :)

Also how did your biggest cake ever project go?? That sounded like a lot of fun!

How is your family? I haven't seen them in ages!!

I sure do miss hanging out!

-Rai

I sure do...

miss you guys and Bennet.

:(

I heard that you were born today..

Klemey,

I say do what makes you happy.

If you feel unready for college, then don't push it.

Life can be really difficult to deal with when you are trying to fulfill other people's expectations and not your own.

I am proud of both of you either way. A lot of girl (and guys) drop out of high school when they are SO close. But you two are not one of those statistics and I'm proud to call you both my friends.

Also Klemey, how was the Papa Roach concert? I thought that was pretty cool that they came here! And I loved most of the videos you posted :)

I am also sorry that I cancelled our bike ride...I've been having a tough time with life these past few weeks and I pretty much cancelled everything I had planned and sleep for days at a time...depressing I know. But I'm doing better and just trying to focus on the positive things going on :)

Here is a video that I wanted to share with you guys...I know you guys don't love him/want to have his babies like I do but this is soooo different than what he normally does and thought that you guys would like it more! It feels like he's talking directly to me! Eek! lol

Angel, how did your final essay come out? It is amazingly fantastic???

I'm sorry we didn't get to go to club M for National Dance Day...although I bet they weren't even open...lame-os. Are you going to the Glee movie midnight showing? Everytime I see the preview I think of you and Klemey! hahha Oh you Gleeks.....

Oh, Klemey, have you seen the show The Glee Project? Believe it or not, I'm actually in love with it.

But anyways, I'm just going to share a few songs that get me through the day :) I hope you enjoy them!

This one I love especially! =]

I didn't mean to..

make it seem like I was saying Goodbye to our friendship.

Yesterday, I was feeling helpless and when I do that I say and do things I don't mean.

That's been happening a lot lately.

There's something going on....but I'll talk more about it later..

but I'm sorry Klemey, your post made me remember all the good times but then of course, my mind went back to the bad times. Not just with us, but my entire life.

I just feel like we've all drifted apart.

I can't even remember the last time I talked to you on the phone.

I can't remember the last time we all hung out.

I had to read on Amy's facebook that you left for Oregon. I didn't even get to send a goodbye text :(

All I know is that I'm not the same anymore. But come August, I'm gonna find out what my problem is.

But please don't think we aren't friends anymore. I think the only thing worse than friends fighting is them drifting apart. Because it's sad that it seems like they don't need each other anymore.

I can't afford to lose another friendship.

Looking back...

I've noticed a pattern..with all of our get togethers and ideas...

I'm not going to get into it.

But I feel like we've all grown apart and this blog means nothing to us anymore.

This is my 580th post.

And my last.

My main question for everything is....

"Why?"

Why was it like that?

Why IS it like that?

Anyways, I doubt either of you will see this.

But it's time to start a new leaf.

Head towards our future.

So I guess this is Goodbye to Bennet.

Klemey,

I was not DISAPPOINTED in you for dropping the class. I was just worried cuz you might have to take it again in college for the accounting degree, and college classes are more difficult than high school.

If there is anything I noticed first about college was what they expect from you.

You may or may not need this, but I've decided to make a little college guide based on my first year!

Rai's Survival Guide to UAA:

-Choose classes wisely.

Check your major planning sheets and meet with your advisor when you can. There is nothing worse than wasting time AND a load of money for a class that isn't even required. (This hasn't happened to me, but it just seems like the number one rule)

-Professors aren't as lenient as high school teachers.

In high school, give the attendance office a (possibly forged) note for why you missed 4th period and it's all good. In college, certain professors may not let you make-up tests or quizzes unless you have a legit doctor's note. And if they agree to reschedule your test/quiz, it very well may be during another class you have.

-Blackboard and internet access is KEY. About 99% of the professors post homework assignments, instructions, syllabi, grades, and other important information on blackboard.

-Time flies when you are having fun. So be careful when meeting/hanging out with other people. But trust me, I wouldn't have made it through first or second semester without the support and advice from my friends, so don't alienate them. Plus always remember "It's not what you know, it's who you know." Crazy I know. But that's just how this country works.

-Kiss your sleep schedule goodbye. You may think you can get to bed at a certain time every night, but you could be mistaken. A lot of people I know go to sleep between 12-2. Me, I go to bed around 4 and 5. Sad I know.

-Figure out if you are an early bird or a night prowler. Me, I'm a night prowler, which is why I don't mind night classes. I was born at night, I'm meant to be out when it's dark lol But my 10am class. Forget about it. Making that class is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my life. lol

-Think about how you schedule your classes. Your first year will always be a little test run. This entire year I had like 1 hour to 2 and a half hour blocks between classes. But I hated/hate it. I feel like the time in between is wasted and I could doing other things, but the gap isn't large enough to work or go volunteer (based on the bus schedule, once I get my license and a car, there will be no stopping me lol) But next Fall, I only have 2 days that have blocks, the others I'm gonna be working (hopefully)

-Think about the type of classes you like. To me, certain subjects such as Biology and Anthropology shouldn't be lecture classes, but they are. My russian class is more of a hands on, group-y type class. I enjoy that kind basically because it doesn't make me sleepy. OH, and depending on how you learn, certain classes could be awful. Like in biology, my grade only depended on little in-class attendance/quizzes and the midterm and final. I don't like classes like this because if you happen to do badly on it, oh well. That's it. But like with Russian and my accounting class, we have homework often, so I'm able to actually LEARN the material and apply in class. Plus there is more going towards your grade in those types of classes.

-College Myths:

Parties

There aren't a lot of parties like you see in the movies. Random people might have parties, but there is never someone spreading the news that there is a party of Josh's or Ashely's house. lol

If there are any parties, you have to be 21 and older. And yes, they actually ask you your age. Jaime got invited to a party once and asked if she was 21 and she said no and the guy said Nevermind. lol

Guys

To be honest...depending on the type of guy you like...there aren't that many "hot" ones. Most of them are either too into their studies, have girlfriends, or are old. It's the sad truth. But hey, you never know. You guys may find your future husband in this crowd.

-Hopefully I'll get to stay in the dorms next semester! That way I can tell you guys how it is. But I've been to them many times and they aren't so bad :) I'M SO EXCITEDDD

I turned in my housing application today! EEKK I just hope it all goes alright!

But yeah. If you guys have any other questions just holla at me.

Hopefully you guys registered either the night the classes opened or SOON.

Because seniors, juniors, and sophomores already chose classes and if you guys wait TOO long, the ones you want may be filled up :/

JUST DO IT ASAP!!

LIKE RIGHT NOW.

DO IT.

NOW.

GO.

THIS SECOND.

RIGHT NOW.

IN 3

2

1

GO

NOW

AHORA

СЕЙЧАС

ORA

NU

MAINTENANT

τώρα

AGORA

지금

今

現在

现在

AND YES THAT WAS THE WORD "NOW" IN 12 DIFFERENT LANGUAGES! guess which one is Russian ;)

NOW I SAID!

Colbie Caillat.

Live at the Alaska State Fair

Monday, September 5, 2011

3pm

Rai has got the OK to go.

She will be front and center.

AW YEAH.

The best from the 3.

I bought Rihanna, Chris Brown, and Adele's albums and I'm going to share the very best from each.

RIHANNA

This chick is my girl crush. I love her.

I have no idea why this font is so huge..it won't let me change it.

Ok never mind, figured it out!

CHRIS BROWN

ADELE

WARNING.

BEWARE, BAD LANGUAGE AHEAD.

ANGEL:

BITCH HOW COULD YOU NOT LIKE THE 4TH SEASON?

IT WAS AWESOME. MAINLY BECAUSE CB WAS IN IT!

HEY AND BITCH, KLEMEY WANTS HER MOVIES BACK!

SO GIVE EM TO HER BITCH!

ALSO, BITCH I HAVE A CONFESSION. I LOOKED UP THE PICTURE AGAIN. I ALREADY TOLD KLEMEY, BUT I FELT LIKE I SHOULD TELL YOU TOO.

KLEMEY:

IT WAS SOO NICE TALKING TO YOU ON THE PHONE! :)

I'VE MISSED YOU!!

I'M GONNA HUNT DOWN MR. NO NAME AND I WILL MAKE HIM GO TO YOUR LINE TO LEARN HIS NAME!

I'M GOING RIGHT NOW. I'M GETTING OUT OF BED AND I'M HOPPING IN MY CAR, AND I'M DRIVING OVER TO HIS HOUSE. IT'S JUST DOWN THE STREET FROM DESHAWN'S APARTMENT..

BTW...CONFESSION #67 DESHAWN ALSO TRIED TO GET ME TO SHOOT HEROIN, BUT I SAID HELL NO. AND HE GOT UPSET AND WENT AND SPENT THE NIGHT WITH SOME SLUT ACROSS THE STREET. SO I CALLED HIS FRIEND, THE ONE WHO ASKED FOR MY NUMBER, AND I BUMPED UGLY WITH HIM. TWICE.

BOTH ANGEL AND KLEMEY:

I HAVE A PLAN.

I NEED TO TALK TO BOTH OF YOU ABOUT IT.

IT INVOLVES SOMETHINGS WE'VE ALL TALKED ABOUT AT DIFFERENT TIMES.

BUT THIS WILL MAKE BENNET HISTORY..IT MAY NOT BE A GOOD HISTORY..BUT IT WILL BE WORTH OUR TIME. I PROMISE.

AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I'M TYPING IN CAPS. I JUST FEEL LIKE THIS POST NEEDS TO BE HEARD MORE THAN ANY OTHER POST LOL

BUT OMG YOU GUYS. THIS MOVIE GIVES ME SHIVERS AND I HAVE TO SEE IT. BUT IT DIDN'T PLAY HERE AND IT'S NOT ON DVD YET. I'VE SEARCHED THE INTERNET FOR IT, BUT I CAN'T EVEN FIND A WAY TO DOWNLOAD IT!

BUT EVAN ROSS, THE MAIN GUY IS SO AMAZINGLY GOOD LOOKING TO ME. AND I FEEL LIKE I CAN RELATE TO HIM..I DON'T KNOW. I KINDA WANT EVERYONE I KNOW TO SEE THIS MOVIE BECAUSE THEY MIGHT UNDERSTAND A LITTLE MORE...

Oh Klemey,

I got you good.

:)

hehehe

AAAWWW YYYEEAAAHHH.

I feel like...

just going away.
Hopping on a plane and relocating somewhere..with just a suitcase or two of my belongings.
Just go out..and fend for myself and make my actions count.
It would be difficult...and most likely dubbed a ridiculous thing to do by some...but I feel like I wouldn't be wasting as much time as I do now. Because I'd actually be WORKING towards something each day. I'd have to find a job, find a place to live, and make ends meet.
I'd like that challenge.
...but I will wait till after this summer to decide how things will turn out for me...
this summer could be the summer to MAKE me or BREAK me.
There's a lot I'll have to do:
go to school
get a job
volunteer
learn to drive
build my credit
replace my wardrobe
and get a new cell phone
oh and ipod

Once I build the foundations of my life, I'll be able to actually START it.
THIS is exciting.
If I don't accomplish at LEAST HALF of this list, then I'm doomed.
YOU CAN QUOTE ME.
lol
okay im tired and want to go to bed, but i CAN'T cuz I have work to do...
later!

Dynamic Duo.

We should tell them we come in a set, hire one get the other one free! :)

Or I'll just stick to my Polar Bear Gift Shop! <3

Look At Me Now..just doesn't mean the same thing anymore.

What is "bumping ugly?"

I applied for 4 more scholarships today! AH!

Soooo mannnnyyyy bbllaahhh

I just might go to Dimond and ask that restaurant about working there since they know me and my mom :)

I'm also going to reach out to some of my old high school teachers including Ms. Campbell to see how they are doing :)

I'm gonna try and rack up as many references and letters of recommendation as I can!

We should all go rollerskating ONCE month and mark it as our BENNET DAY.

IT'S SO MUCH FREAKING FUN! AND A GREAT WORK OUT! haha

What do you guys say? We should pick a day in April that WE ALL CAN GO and declare that as our rollerskating day. Of course I'd prefer to go once a week, but I don't think that is possible with our schedules and what not....

But let me know what you guys thinkkkk...

CB and JB have a new song outtt

Oh and Food bank is having another box build if you guys wanted to go again, I'm gonna go :)

Its march 19, 2011 at 9 to noon or 1-4pm

Ok, have to go to bed nowww I need to get up in 5 hours.

Laterr

I'd Like to Take Some Time to Acknowledge..

WHAT A CRAZY PERSON I AM!

haha i was rereading some old posts and damn im stupid hahah lol

But they make me laugh hahahhahahahaahhhaahha

so funny hehehhehehheeh

"Give me something good, don't wanna wait, I want it now, now, now, now.."

What Do You Say to Taking Chances?

How long do you guys want to stay at UAA?

What part of UAA do you guys want to?

Are we gonna study or apply for scholarships?

Century or Tikahtnu?

What time you guys need to be home?

Did you want to do things after the movie or go straight home?

I NEED ANSWERS SO I KNOW WHAT BUS TIMES TO LOOK AT, WHAT TO BRING, AND HOW MUCH MONEY TO BEG FOR FROM MY PARENTS!

lol

cuz im a broke joke.

I wish all the snow and ice would melt.

I wanna ride my bike places :(

Ok, test me1

Oops I meant

text me!

I'm too lazy to delete.

BYE!

World Of Chances.

So I will figure out transportation for us all if you both tell me where you will be before 10am tuesday :)

You know me..Transportation Queen...more like People Mover Queen.

Anyways, I was thinking of transferring to a different university..but I already have a plan for UAA....I'll just stick with what I've started with and see where things go :)

So I'm applying to the Honors College....and in the Fall I'm going to join the Accounting club.

That should be interesting.

Hopefully by then I will have more confidence and feel comfortable speaking in front of people :S

That's what I'm going to work on this summer, improving my self-esteem and learning to love myself :)

Hopefully my oral communications class helps me with that...

and hopefully I'll get to spend more time with friends this summer too..

I don't know..sometimes whenever something doesn't go as planned or everyone seems to be doing things with other people when I'm not, I start to feel like no one likes me enough to make time for me...and that makes me feel bad about myself :( Stupid I know, but that's just how I feel.

I mean I've kinda always been alone growing up, no brothers or sisters and that's one of my major fears of the future: dying alone.

Like all I see is me sitting in a house with a cat. Watching tv or reading a book.

But we'll see. Maybe that won't happen.

But I've started working out daily with my mom :)

So that's a good start to feeling better about my self physically.

And once I start writing letters to family in the lower 48, I'll feel better about myself as a cousin/granddaughter.

AND once I get a job, one of the first things I'm going to buy before I start saving is a new keyboard!

I have NO IDEA how much they cost, but I'd like a new one...my moms old one is kinda weird....and annoying hahah

and I'll get a stand with it :)

Anyways, I've got to go do some homework!

Laterssss

OH GOD. I FEEL DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF!

So one of CBs ex girlfriends posted a picture of him online and I went to go see it, but I kinda accidentally saw everything.......everything! :( I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF

:(

I'm a bad person.

BUT I DIDN'T MEAN TO!

I just wanted to see what TYPE of picture it was..not see the whole thing!

grrrrr

The website said he was "sexting" someone and she released it online. Its new cuz it features his new blonde hair.

I saw more of my husband than I was supposed to! :(

This is so bad. I'm so bad.

Do you guys think that was bad of me?

I'm On The Right Track Baby I Was Born This Way.

So TUESDAY IS AMAZINGLy good for me!
Did you guys want to do scholarships or study that day and then go to a movie?
BEASTLY?! PLEASE TELL ME YOU GUYS HAVENT SEEN IT YET....
Is 10 am too early to get started?
It's weird..I classify the "start" of a day at "10 am". haha

Anywhosers, my sidesss hurrrttt. I've come to realize that I can only do my best and as long as I do that, then I cannot stress about things that aren't in my control! I feel like a part of the load has been lifted from my shoulders. :)
So I'm glad you guys like the blog! =]

I figured I should add personal Bennet stuff on it :) hehehe

Angel: yeahhhhhhhhh JB is coolioz. When I saw the pics from his 17th bday I said HE'S 17?!?! I could have SWORN he was turning 18. but nope. hahaah

I've been wearing sparkly nail polish :) It makes me feel good and girly heheh
I'm wearing Gold right now, but I recently bought a sparkly Pink! ah! I think it will look good with my skin tone :) It's like a soft rosey pink hehe

I need new boots.

Klemey, Thank you for being concerned about me "not liking" tikahtnu if I work there, but since I don't really plan to work there for a LOOONNNGGG time, I should be good :) I feel like I've been in this crazy stressful land and going back to work there wouldn't be TOO bad, but I mainly didn't like it cuz I always worked alone in the mornings :( It was very lonely. But if I got to work with other people especially you then I'd be happy!!

But if I start to drive soon, I'd have to work at Totem since it's closer to my dom (house in russian)
Here is a list of possible places I could work:
Totem
Tikahtnu
Fred Meyer-By Sears
Carrs
Value Village
Payless-Dimond
Greek Corner- heheh how wonderful would it be to work around oiraD heheh I could be a dishwasher :) lol

Question:
Would you guys judge me if I told you I did something...not Rai like?
If I did something not Rai like would you guys want me to tell you or keep it to myself?