Well..

one thing is for sure...

once you start college you are practically diving into a pool of emotional chaos.

You've got your UPS and you've got your DOWNS.

You're got your SHIZZ! and you've got your WOWS.

You've got your TRUE friends and you've got your FRAUDS.

Keep in mind it is very difficult to distinguish the difference between them at first. But then BOOM! One little insignificant detail can throw your entire world into whack.

But overall I have made a decision.

I am going to STOP living for other people and I'm going to START living for me.

Now this doesn't mean I'm going to be selfish..it means I'm going to start doing what I feel I should be doing.

This means no chatty-chatty inbetween my classes. I'm gonna go straight to the library. Even if it seems a world away. I've got a GPA I need to maintain if I want to go to Venice in 3 years.

This means I'm avoiding the Cuddy hall like the plague. I'M WARNING YOU NOW BENNET GIRLS. Cuddy is the WORST place to even THINK about studying. Cuddy is where all the people are, all the food is, and all the loudness resides. Oh and this is the number one place where you will spend every cent you own.

My new name for Cuddy Hall is "The Blackhole of Education".

Anyways, I'm done trying to get people to go karaoke bowling in the middle of the week, I'm done trying to get people to see movies on the weekends. From now on I'm going to just study and look for a new job. I'm gonna do more volunteering (Yessy told me about a teen clinic downtown she's interested in). I'm gonna take summer school classes this summer. I'm gonna make more time for READING. I have a MILLION books I need to read.

I also feel that I should distance myself from technology such as facebook, twitter, and random websites. I'm going to force myself to stay focused on my school work whenever on the computer.

On a separate note, I just had an idea. I should get some storage containers for my junk in my room..anyways.

I'm also going to spend loads of time with my parents!

I feel like I've been neglecting them. It's like I've been putting myself before them. But NO MORE I SAY!

I'm gonna go buy some board games and wii games we can all play and we'll have real "family time". :)

So I think I've got my main priorities figured out...

anyways just wanted to share with you guys how things are going for me :)

Now if you'll excuse me..the potential account for Saturday Night Live is going to start watching all 36 seasons on netflix! (Don't judge me!!!!) Lol

I figured that if I watch EVERY SINGLE EPISODE they will see how dedicated I am :)

It's my new addition to my bucket list!

12,345: Watch every episode of Saturday Night Live ever produced in the United States of America.