Watching America's Got Talent..

made me realize something.
It's truly amazing what I witness sometimes.
People who are poor, homeless, and sick are usually the happiest and the most positive.
I am so selfish.
Here I am with an abled body, clean mind, and all my senses and I complain and am not happy.
I feel so awful.
Like I've been blessed by God and I don't even realize it.
I complain about being an only child.
But I have 2 wonderful parents who care so much for me that they are willing to keep the tire off my bike so I don't ride through tunnels alone.
I complain about the dishes all the time.
But I have a dish washer. (Watching/hearing Klemey do the dishes without a dish washer made me see how stupid and selfish I am.)
I complain about there being nothing to eat.
But there ARE things to eat, just not what I like.
I am SO selfish.
No wonder I keep losing friends! No wonder I get in fights with people.
Ugh. I feel like I'm wasting my chance to be the best I can be and do the best I can do for this world. I can't let that happen.
I want to change the world in a good way and I'm going to do.
One little step at a time.
First off, I need to change ME.
I'm going to stop being selfish. One way to help me with this is to THINK before I speak. I have the tendency to just talk and I end up sounding selfish and stupid.
And then I'm going to STOP complaining.
I do that too often.
I need to realize that I was hired at (insert company name here) for a reason and it was not a mistake. (and yes, I do feel sometimes that they have made a mistake in hiring me.) So I am going to be the best salesperson tomorrow and serve those people with happy faces and a warm heart!
The way I talked to my mom today was UNACCEPTABLE.
I cannot let that happen again.
She is too sweet and kind and doesn't deserve that treatment.
I need to release my anger and throughts in my journal.
Not towards other people.
I apologize from the bottom of my heart if I have ever said anything mean or selfish towards you guys. It's never my intention, it just comes out. But I'm going to practice working on that. =]