Very serious message from Rai.

Ok Klemey and Angel.
I have to be honest with you guys and myself.

I can be a total B*tch and we all know it.

I get upset easily, I snap all the time, I have crazy mood swings, and I whine and complain about everything.

But I am reading this book that is helping me change my life. I know I'm young and there's not much to change, but apparently there is.

I just discovered that I am a Reactive person.
Reactive people just "react" to situations while Proactive people think about the situation all the way through.

My book says that Reactive people:
-Are easily offended [check]
-Blame others [check]
-Get angry and say things they regret later [check]
-Whine and complain [check and check]
-Wait for things to happen to them [ :( very true]
-Change only when they have to [sadly this is true too]

So I am asking you guys, since I spend most of my time with you and my rents, if you can help me out.
I would greatly appreciate it if you could be honest and upfront with me whenever I am doing these things. Like if I start to complain about something could you say like "Oh Rai! You're complaining." ? Do you think you guys can help me? =[

My attitude and view of life is getting me nowhere. I am sitting in my room with a million things to do and I just 'think' about doing them and then I get un-motivated to do them after I think about all the hard work.
For example: My stupid portfolio. I need to do it and I just don't want to, but now I am choosing to do for my heart's sake. Maybe when I finish it, I will be happy with myself and I will be motivated to do other things. =]

But I have a feeling this is going to be a looonng and difficult process.
I am calling it Operation: Re-invention.
I need to re-invent the old Rai. Or else I will never accomplish my number one goal in life:

To Be Happy.

-rai