ok. Rai here

-I happen to be a very confused, unhappy, jealous person.
Yes, I know being "jealous" is horrible and probably a very bad sin, but it's not like your average jealousy.
-I have this problem where I watch a movie, or read a book and I automatically want to be the person being "displayed". I want to have a life like all of these different people. It's so crazy because I will stop and think to myself.."Why do you want to be someone else?" "Why do you want your life to be like others?"
But it's not something I can help.
-I'm guessing I was just BORN unhappy. It's so weird. Like I treat all of my stuff like crap. I throw it, kick it, or drop it on purpose..mainly because I don't care about it.[This is something I just developed in my brain..a new synapse has been created.] I don't care about all of the stuff money can buy. What I want most from my life is happiness, love, adventure, and humor. Money cannot buy these things and apparently they do not come with life.
-But I am working hard on living life to fullest...I mean why else would I post a random post on the blog declaring that I want to go shopping for jewelry or go sledding?! [which by the way, we haven't done yet...]
But I suppose that if I just work hard on every task that is given to me and push through all of the difficult times...maybe one or more of these things will be granted to me. At least I hope that happens.
Anyways, gonna go now.
-Rai
*Chris Brown Fact: He has deleted his twitter account. I repeat. Chris Brown has deleted his twitter account. The world has official come to an end.