Do you ever feel like..

nothing in life really matters that much?

I have these moments where I feel like school, work, arguing, sleep, etc just doesn't matter.

I think about the Earth and how we live on it.

I don't really know how to explain it, but it's really remarkable.

It's just one of those things where you have to be me to truly understand.

But believe me, it's an amazing thing.

And then I think about the size of the Earth.

And then I think about time.

Time.

It comes quickly.

It goes quickly.

Then before you know it, you're sitting in your room thinking about how the whole Taylor Swift/Kanye West thing seems like it happened yesterday.

And it's almost been a year.

A whole year.

Gone like that.

What am I doing?

Why am I stuck here?

Why aren't I doing something productive with my time?

I'm 18.

Already.

There's an entire planet out there just waiting for me.

This may sound ridiculous, but I don't need money, a career, a diploma, a degree, a car, a computer, a phone, an iPod, or a tv.

I just need to see this Earth.

I joke about backpacking to the Honduras at times, but I'd totally do it.

I'm just waiting for the day to come where I need to.

I'm not saying I'm not going to go to school.

I'm going to give that a try and see how it works out for me.

I'm going to try my best, I owe my parents that much.

I want to make them proud of me.

But I ask myself if I'M proud of myself.

At the end of the day, it's just me.

No friends, no family, no pets.

Just myself.

But anyways,

I just needed to share that with someone.

My mom tells me that I am a determined young lady and she doesn't know where I get that from.

I don't know where I get it from either, but I think I know where it's going to take me.

Hopefully around this planet.

-Rai