Hell, If I Know...Is There's A Better Place To Go?

So,
(500) Days of Summer
was a really good movie.

I really liked it.

In fact, I think I loved it.

It got me thinking. I am so alike to both his and her characters.

I'm like him because of
the whole never-gonna-be-truely-happy-till-I-find-love thing.
And the whole believing in fate kind of thing.
I think everything happens for some odd reason.
And one day that'll bring me to the one I love.

But then in another way sometimes I think I may be like him
by having been exposed to movies about love and songs about love from the get go.
Maybe that has ruined my whole view of what real love is.
Maybe that gave me false expectations... A false reality.
Who knows?

Sometimes though....
I do wish that I didn't want to find love so much.
Maybe my life would be easier.
And I could focus on other things more,
instead of daydreaming about guys...And such.

Then maybe I'm like her in some ways too.
Like I don't want a relationship.
I know that doesn't make sense,
it's contrary to what I just said but that's how I feel.
I don't think I'm good at them.

But how do I really know if I am or not?
I mean I don't exactly qualify for experience points seeing as
I've only dated a grand total of 3 guys.

Who knows?
One day I'll figure this out.
Fate will do what it finds it should.

As for Burrito...
I was thinking about this earlier...
And I imagined a conversation in my head.
I like this best because it would either make or break our future together...
If I said this, this simple little convov.,
then he'd be in charge of taking the next step.
And if it turns out he doesn't want to or if he really is dating
Book-Worm or some other amazing ass girl...
Then at least I tried.

See here's how it would go down.
It would have to be sometime when we are remotely alone, of course.

Klemey: Can I tell you something?

Burrito: Sure.

Klemey: Ever since that day we went to Taco Bell...I think about you a lot.
I think it's because I find you interesting, seriously interesting.

***Silence***

(I don't really anticipate a response from him)

But if I did it'd be one of these:
1.) Weird look then a brisk effort to walk away as fast as possible.
2.) Possible name calling
or accusations of being a stalker/creeper.
3.) Call for security.

And if in the rare case that none of the above happen I'd end the convo. with...

Klemey: Please don't think me weird, it's just the truth...Just had to get it out.
I'll leave you alone for the rest of your life now.

I know it's not much, but at least he'd know
that he's on my mind, a lot.
(And think that I'm a freak)

But it will release some weight off my shoulders!
I mean if I knew for certain that he doesn't like me
at all
then I can relax, focus on other things...
Like school starting,
or learning to drive.
Crap like that!

Rai, I know you have a plan,
Operation: Burrito.
I wanna hear it before I actually launch my solo mission.

As for Glee Boy, I'll handle that next time he calls.

I'll tell him,
we're just friends 'cuz of the move.
And that I still have my feelings for him
(the same ones I've had since day one)
but that I just think it'd be better for us to just call ourselves friends
because of the distance.

I feel good right now.
I feel like my plans right now are stable.
Possible.
Maybe weak or crazy,
but still...
decent.

Well, now I just need your guys thoughts.

I'ma go then.

Bub-Bye!

Klemey.

(Just a little reminder I wrote this early this morning around 2 am I'm just publishing it now...)