I have done some research..

1. I am not to be alone in a room with the opposite sex. Because with the two of us, there is a 3rd visitor..and that is Shaytan (satan). This I believe because things always happen when a woman and a man are alone in a room.
2. I am not allowed to have a boyfriend. In my religion, there is no such thing as a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. I am either married or not.
3. I am not supposed to look at men or have feelings for them. I am supposed to lower my gaze around non-muslim men and not let a second look follow the first. God grants me the first look, but I shouldn't look a second time.

Now here are my responses.
1. This is very difficult living in the world and country that we do. Even me getting counted out by Sweetheart is wrong, but there is nothing I can do but remind myself that we are not alone.
2. This I guess I can understand. But I am the type who would marry for love. Therefore, marrying a complete stranger wouldn't make sense. So in order to know the person, I would have to get to know them. But I need to have some sort of self-control I guess..so no BF for me ladies. I may be lonely and boring and feel like a 3rd or 5th wheel (how I felt when we saw Karate Kid[the movie, not the guy] with Nora and Glee Boy) but at least I know I am protecting myself and following what I was told to do.
3. This is extremely difficult for me. I don't know if I could ever change this in my life. But I could try. I look at it as though I am admiring God's work. We cannot deny there are some very attractive men in this world. And I ALWAYS remind myself either out loud or in my head that this is God's creation and I admire it with so much love. I mean I understand the purpose of this ruling, it's to keep us women from commiting adultery and making moves towards the men. But this is ME. We all know I'd be too shy to do either one! And besides, I wouldn't ever let anything like that happen. I feel like when Sweetheart was in the room with us, I didn't talk much because I was shy AND because I knew he'd see how truly amazing I was and he would want me so badly. =p But seriously, I feel like I knew I shouldn't say too much or get into anything that could potentially express my admiration for him. I'm not completely ignorant...

This whole thing just made me cry. I feel like I've been living the wrong way..but I am trying to change little by little =]
I just need your guys' friendship support! <3
I love you two!